What’s the point?

Posted on March 2nd, 2009 by Ruben

I find I am saying this to much recently. I have lots to live for yet find I
am still looking for something far more meaningful than the life I have. My
life isn’t that bad. Sure, it would be nice to have an income, but with a
plan in progress with my music publishing, things are looking promising,
albiet slow and painful.

Even that seems to tell me there is a reason for it. I have never been
‘poor’ before and it is good for me to experience how tight life can be (in
the western sense of course!).

But there is more to life, surely. More to the day to day routine. Raising
kids, have some time out.. Working..

Maslow talked about Self-Actualization in his Hierarchy of needs. Jung talks
about getting to mid life and becoming more spiritual.

This seems to match, although I do recall in my late 20’s feeling just the
same.. Looking for something that would excite me and drive me with a
feeling of adventure.

I love the cinema, and find films a great escape from the normality of life.
I think many of us do this too much, living our lives mostly in a fantasy
world. I can imagine some (as sometimes I do myself) just want to live in
that fantasy instead of the dreary concrete walled, processed food life that
has become the norm as a westerner.

My new career is about following a passion, but I find the business means I
have little time for that passion. Yet the years still flow.

I am beginning to feel that I need to make some plans for definite changes
this year. I want to take the summer off to travel to all the regional
festivals. I want to make my business an online business that I can, within
reason, manage from anywhere so that I can take in the world and all its
wonders.

Maybe I don